I have to start off this entry with an apology to a former friend. He sent me a cryptic email and never replied to my request for clarification. In fact, he isn't responding to my email at all. So I have decided to use my blog as a standing apology and hope that he reads … Continue reading Losing a friendship… →

I know what I really want in life. I think too often we all really know what we want but are afraid to admit it. If we declare what we want then we have set a marker by which we can ultimately judge success or failure. If I declare that I want job x but … Continue reading What I really want… →

"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years." Abraham Lincoln Sunday morning, in the spirit of moving boldly into my new identity, I bought a copy of OUT magazine. I had told myself I was going to read it on my return journey to … Continue reading Ageism, Homosexuality, and LTR →

"Our frustration is greater when we have much and want more than when we have nothing and want some. We are less dissatisfied when we lack many things than when we seem to lack but one thing.” Eric Hoffer After my workout this evening, I went out to dinner with a group of guys. I … Continue reading Flirtation…Frustration… →

“A journey is best measured in friends rather than miles” Tim Cahill   I decided to throw caution in the wind and go on a trip in order to visit someone with whom I had only exchanged email. Part of me cursed myself for foolishly disregarding my personal safety and entrusting some stranger. I completely … Continue reading Special Trip →

"What makes vanity so insufferable to us, is that it hurts our own." Francois de La Rochefoucauld Like I mentioned in yesterday's post, I went to the gym today in order to try to look better for the object of my Mancrush. I entered the gym with a full head of steam ready to lift … Continue reading Manboobs and a Burst Ego →

 “It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.”Yesterday was the first time in my life that I saw a man and ached with lust and desire. Sure, there are … Continue reading 21 JAN 08 – Mancrush →

So this is my third time starting a blog. Hopefully it will work out better than the previous two attempts. Anyway, I have decided to quit living a lie and fully accept that I am gay. I have been in denial for so long that I don't know what it feels like to live truthfully. … Continue reading 3rd Time Starting a Blog →