I know why I failed miserably as an Army officer; I cannot handle living with ambiguity. I need the world to be black and white, not some opaque shade situated somewhere in between. Of course real life is muddied by misunderstood intentions, fear of rejection, pride or ego, jealousy, and a litany of other petty … Continue reading Ambiguity →

In words, thoughts, deeds, and actionsYou relentlessly programmed out emotionChief among those:Love and affectionYet now you resent the minimal love and affection I have for you Those times I cried when I had to say goodbyeTo him,My beloved idol,Your despised ex,You silenced my tearsWith both threats and punishment You were “really going to give me … Continue reading You Reap What You Sow: My Thoughts on Mother’s Day →

Earlier in the day, a recent online acquaintance had relayed that he had just learned of the sudden death of a close friend. He was completely unprepared for the news. To make matters worse, he had received word a few days before that another friend had passed away. Our relationship is basically a 21st century … Continue reading The Lonely Commute… →

Long night, short nap, long day... Sometimes I just look at the man in the mirror and wonder how the hell he ended up here.  A more thoughtful voice speaks up and reminds me that "here" is a pretty awesome place.  I get paid to go to school and surround myself by some of the … Continue reading April 23, 2009 →

Scrambling... I am in the office early this morning trying to make up for making absolutely no progress yesterday.  I guess I had a really bad case of the "Tuesdays" and just couldn't motivate myself to get any work done.  So now I have to scramble to put together a very informal presentation for a … Continue reading April 22, 2009 →

It's morning in America again... I woke up late. Feeling kind of blue. I have a lot of work to do but don't feel motivated. I just have to get through the next few weeks then the semester will be over. Hopefully for the better...

I never knew the four horsemen of the apocalypse would be a gaggle of teenage girls riding the bus from North Cambridge into Harvard station. These girls were being obnoxiously loud as teenagers are wont to do. It was the topic of their loud discussion that left me depressed and realizing that our society is … Continue reading Doomed… →

Dad:  Hello? Me:  It's me. Dad:  I got your letter... Me:  and... Dad:  As the British say,  "it's not my cup of tea," but that doesn't matter.  I still love you.  To be honest, when I saw the thick envelope, I thought you were writing to tell me you had failed out of Harvard.  I … Continue reading Transcript of conversation between my Dad and me: →