I have been posting a daily self-portrait of myself on Flickr since June. Today’s picture (included at the bottom) is somewhat out of focus as the auto-focus feature of my digital point and shoot camera elected to focus on the fence in the frame and not me. I am a bit blurry in the background. That kind of sums up how I am feeling today, overlooked.
I don’t have the right words to express what I am feeling tonight. I just want to find someone to whom I can give myself completely, without any reservations. In the back of my mind I know I worry that if I were to find that guy I might destroy myself. I think, though, that I have sabotaged my other relationships specifically to prevent myself from totally caving in to another person. I am not sure how I can rectify this situation. Finding someone like that is something that can not be done deliberately. It will just happen when I least expect it.
<a href=”http://www.flickr.com/photos/mischief1972/2693772665/” title=”I’m not that interested in me either… by Mischief 1972, on Flickr”><img src=”http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3001/2693772665_cb8cf56854_b.jpg” width=”1024″ height=”819″ alt=”I’m not that interested in me either…” /></a>
A little bit of Mischief... 
